I guess the shadow of good news is that every problem that the doctor is treating has gotten better, except for the overwhelming, debilitating fatigue and weakness, and, of course, the cancer. Other good news is that the nodules in LeeR's lungs have remained about the same, showing that the chemo was not all in vain. Other good news is that the red blood levels are not plummeting like they were a few weeks ago. They are low still and going down, but at a much slower rate than before. And the platelets and white blood cells are all in a normal range.
The bad news is that since everything looks good and is responding to treatment, the only cause of the fatigue and weakness is the cancer. And that appears unstoppable. Thankfully, it has slowed down from the original path but seems to have picked up speed the past few days as LeeR's weakness has increased noticeably.
It looks like we have had our last visit to the doctor. He was so compassionate and understanding and is hopeful that LeeR will be playing at Swiss Days--he may even try to come that morning. He gave us both hugs and told us to go home and enjoy the time we have left.
We'll stay on home healthcare for a while longer so that LeeR can have his blood tested each week and have another transfusion next week to help him through his alphorn performance. After that, we'll rely on hospice for comfort. I gained such an appreciation for hospice services when I volunteered for them a few years ago. The slogan of the hospice company I worked for was, "We come into this world surrounded by love; we believe we should leave the same way." I believe that, too, and fully intend to surround my sweetheart with love every minute of every day we have together.
So if you wonder how the day went and how the night is going, please read the end of yesterday's SOS post. That's how it was, how it is, and how the night will most likely be. Love to all!
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